Do you ever look back at photos of yourself and just…cringe? Like, “Why did I think that cropped denim jackets with faux hoodie accents were a good idea”? Or, “What in middle class suburbia were we tentatively rebelling against with our oh-so-tough studded belt”? Or, “Why on Earth did I get that haircut? I’ve met my hair. I had to know that wasn’t going to end well”? Or, “Wow, Emily, really? A turtleneck sweater, converse sneakers, AND a fedora?! These senior pictures are one rose away from ‘Nice Guy On The Internet’ territory”. Don’t believe me? Take a gander at this majesty:
Oh yes, boys and girls, that was a look that I thought should be preserved on film forever and was doled out like my own lame TOPPS card to anyone who wanted a wallet sized photo of me. So, I’m sure you are probably wondering between your sips of coffee (well, whatever coffee remains after the spit take I’m sure you just did- good luck getting that off your computer screen), why I am drudging up the past and not just letting it die in a shoebox under a bed somewhere, never to be talked about again. Well, I’ll tell you: 1) It’s absolutely friggin’ hilarious. I mean, seriously, why didn’t anyone stop me? Where were my parental units? Oh that’s right, they were giggling in the waiting room… Can’t say I blame ’em. 2) Yes, I was an awkward child who didn’t know how to dress herself, but I clearly knew that I didn’t want to look like everyone else. That’s… something, right? RIGHT?! (please tell me I’m right) and 3) I clearly got better. It took some time, but I think I’ve finally figured out how to use all the crazy details I love to express myself in a way that says, “Hello, my name is Emily and I am an adult type woman who is classy yet fun” and not “Hello, my name is LookHowNiceAGuyIAm42 and I am a nice guy who likes long walks on the beach at sunset and will you accept this rose and my undying love?”
So, I guess the moral to my story is this: Life is a journey and there are stops along the way where you’re going to look like an idiot. But don’t be afraid to get out there and make messy, weird mistakes. Who knows, one day you may be laughing about them on the internet.